You know why they tell you to “act as if” when you’re trying to accomplish a goal? Because that’s quite literally the thing that has to happen for the goal or dream to be realized. I think it’s a lot harder than some people think to do that, especially if their feelings are at stake. If you say you’re the person that does big bold things then you have to start taking big bold actions. If you say...
If it’s the last thing I ever do.
We all have an internal clock. A rhythm we naturally fall into if we’re allowed, and times that we’re better at doing certain tasks than others. I’m not quite sure yet if writing just before bed is my most coherent time, but it certainly has always been a time when I feel introspective. Which isn’t always a good thing when I’m trying to go to sleep instead of sitting...
This little light of mine…
Did you instinctually read that like you’re singing it? That’s definitely how I wrote it. “This little light of mine, I’m gonna let it shine.” That’s definitely how I wrote it. I remember being at maybe vacation bible school when I was around 10 or so and singing this song. It felt good then and it feels good now. I feel like I was today years old though when I...
I came here to write.
And now that I’m here, I have. Ta dah! When we set expectations for ourselves, really we’re the only ones who know if we’re meeting them. I don’t know about you, but I’ve backed out of a whole lot of things that I’ve decided to do. Granted I have a pretty active imagination and am always coming up with new ideas so there’s a decent amount of...
Is the third time actually the charm?
It feels a little different choosing to do something just for the sake of the practice. Of all the years I’ve done so many things, “the practice” is probably the most elusive part. Not the “doing”. Doing the thing because it’s time to do the thing is a different vibe. Doing the thing just because you have decided that you want to be the person that does the...
Does this count as consistency?
I mean, barely right? Just the second night in a row. It is what it is and I’m good with that. I wanted to come down to write about an existential moment I just had with Tristan at bedtime. We’re laying in his bed before he goes to sleep and he says to me “Mommy, when you die, do you turn into a ghost?” “Ya know… I’m not totally sure about that,” I...
Is this how you blog?
A lot of people on the internet would be happy to sell you a program on how to blog. I’ve been to a couple of their pages. Someone I look to for advice told me I should start writing a blog for soul fulfilling reasons, but I didn’t really understand what is actually MEANT to have a blog. So I did what any self-motivated person would do, I started googling “How to write a...
No It’s Ok, You Can Just Be A Human
I’ve spent a good amount of time learning about business and the entrepreneurial world. One of the things I heard so many people talk about is figuring out your ideal customer avatar. To go deep and write down every detail you can think of for this imaginary person. Where they work, what clothes they like, what music they listen to, their hopes and dreams. I did the exercise. If these people sold...
Fuck Being A Princess, I’m Gonna Be A Cowboy
Some girls grew up dreaming about being princesses. Having a prince or a shining knight sweep them off their feet and they would live happily ever after. That wasn’t me. I was probably four years old. I know that because we were living in our family home in New Bern. Mom and Dad were listening to Willie Nelson sing “Mammas Don’t Let Your Babies Grow Up To Be Cowboys”. Nothing sounded more...
Good or Bad, Our Feelings Won’t Last Forever
I figure if I’m feeling this way then someone else has to be too. Quarantine is hard. And I know good and well that all in all I’ve got it easy compared to a lot of other people. When someone asks how I’m doing I always say “good overall” because that’s the truth. Some days though… some days… I just want it to stop. I just want to leave the house and go somewhere that isn’t the...