I figure if I’m feeling this way then someone else has to be too. Quarantine is hard. And I know good and well that all in all I’ve got it easy compared to a lot of other people. When someone asks how I’m doing I always say “good overall” because that’s the truth. Some days though… some days… I just want it to stop. I just want to leave the house and go somewhere that isn’t the...
Making Space for Creativity in a World Made for Striving
As a creative person I’m always working to balance productivity with inspiration. I know well that so much of the work is sitting down and getting to it. Doing the work. Pen to paper. Instrument in hand. Why are those diligent moments often framed as though they are not inspired? The farther I immerse myself in the joy of being a creator, the less I am willing to believe that my work and...
Behind the Curtain and How Boring We All Are
If I’m honest with both of us, I’m not really sure what I need to say right now. When deciding between my journal or my blog this morning I felt compelled to write to you instead of me. I write these posts because there’s a part of me that wants to connect with part of you. I know that there have been so many times I have read something at just the right moment when I really needed to hear what...
Captain Obvious & General Oblivious
That’s one of the nicknames my wife and I have for each other. She’s Captain Obvious and I am the General Oblivious. Why? Because it’s astounding the things that I manage to be oblivious to at times. It’s mildly ironic considering the sharp attention to detail I have in many areas of life. However though, when it comes to certain aspects of myself I manage to remain generally oblivious for longer...
Motivation… or the lack thereof
It’s just a fact of life that some days you’re going to be unmotivated. Today is one of those days for me. We went to bed pretty late after two episodes of Killing Eve and then an episode of Blackish to lighten the mood. I woke up early which is usually when I start doing my thang. There was none of that today. I sat in the recliner with my eyes closed with a foot still in the dream I was having...
The Answers You Seek Live Inside You
It’s been two months since I sat down to write a post. What’s funny is that it feels so much longer ago than that. Time is moving at a strange pace these days. When I say these days I mean “for the last year of my life”. Having little kids makes time bend in a new way. 15 minutes can feel like hours when I’m waiting for them to finally go take a nap. 14 months seems...
Father’s Day Reflection on Love and Racism
For many people today is riddled with so many different emotions. It feels particularly thick for me today. I loved my father. I was his princess. He died on my 38th birthday of the same cancer that killed my mother. The last time I saw him alive was three months prior. I’m not sure if it was dehydration, elevated calcium levels from his deteriorating bones, or some other factor but he was...
Create Before You Consume
Oh the beautiful fruitful land of our freshly woken minds. How many people do you know immediately grab their phones when they wake up? Eyes open. Blink blink blink. Wham! Their hand reaches for the phone. I’ve done it so many times. There’s something wonderful that happens every morning. We start a brand new day. Our bodies have rested. Our mind has cleared out all the junk. We are a blank...
How To Stop Holding Yourself Back in 1 Step
There have been so many books written on this subject. Your biggest hurdle in life is you. Here’s how it works. Our beliefs create our actions. Our actions create our habits. Our habits create our lives. If you start with a crappy limiting belief, that chain of events is going to lead to something crappy. That part is not your fault. It’s science. I don’t have the studies and references here to...
Is It Better to be Thinking or Allowing?
There is a difference between trying to think your way to an answer and allowing the answer. Thinking is like attempting to force your brain to deliver. It’s like you are tapping your foot waiting for the file clerk to sift through a room full of documents so they can present the one you are looking for. Allowing is knowing that the answer to every question exists and you just have to listen and...